in a city with no end in sight i remember

certain types of plants need shadows and i'll say yes

i'll say

i am one of them.

my friend had to have

her baby in the hospital during a pandemic and what would it be like

to be born a bringer of light

in a city with no end

do you ever simultaneously wish someone would shut

the fuck up and also wish

they would hold you

today we listened to "Apocalypse" by Cigarettes After Sex and

I wanted to write to you to ask how you are little writhing and so many of us

out of mind. but every

thing is bolted down to every

thing so as not to be stolen by a stray

bad thought.

this is when we could really be our best selves and are we.

this is when we could really show up for one another and do we.

this is when we could say "this is what it was like" and will we.

i thought to go out back and move that taut yellow squirrel corpse

and when I did it it was shrivelled and dark. it happened

so fast in absence of heat or water and I thought to myself

o i know nothing

about death and what comes after.

o i know nothing

about how the body rots

in a city.